There's another possibility, but it's not one I will easily accept. Feeling schizo now, and hoping it's not true because if it is, what will I do?

Maybe it's paper checking tomorrow. Yes, it has to be.

(Miss Excellent Self Control has ceased to exist. I am now completely ruled by instinct. How now?)

I'll remove this post tomorrow when I find the reason for, I don't know, everything.


(Update: It's got something to do with feeling alone in a crowd. It just clicked in my brain. I wonder what it means.)